It has been a week since the countdowns have restarted and that we are slowly easing into a brand new year. Heads are slowly blurring out from the food and alcohol induced comas and most of us have already set up the goals that we wish to achieve in 2018. However, one cannot move forward without putting the past to rest and as such, I would like to summarize 2017 briefly.
Last year was quite an important milestone for me. It was my first full year as a freelancer and although it has been a tad stressful at times, I was proud of being able to achieve it on my own. This new career path allowed me to truly broaden my horizons and spread my creative wings. It has also introduced me to some people who have grown dear to my heart and who are now permanently rooted in my life. Unfortunately, not everyone in my life was appreciative of my new lifestyle.
As it happens, 2017 would also turn out to be a painful year for me. For the first time in my twenty nine years of existence, I was truly heartbroken. The person I trusted the most packed up his bags one day and said he was leaving. I wasn’t granted a proper explanation, yet part of me felt that the “adult” way to handle the situation would be to remain friends, a decision that I was unable to maintain. Did I receive proper closure? No, but the abrupt severance of our relationship did end up forcing me to move forward and to make peace with it on my own.
Other than the obvious material separations, we also had emotional ties to cut down. Friends were expected to choose sides. I could understand the inclination of some of my “friends” to side with him due to their common beliefs. However, I also dealt with some people who pretended to be my friends when it was convenient to them, but also chose to hang out with my ex due to the professional connections he could provide despite the obvious pain it would have caused me. While I was originally upset about it (and the subsequent "friends" that I've lost due to posting this blog post and making a slight allusion to the person's name), I would like to thank you all for leaving my life. Often we gage the love that people have for us by the quantity rather than the quality of the people surrounding us.
Ending the year on a brighter note, I did end up meeting someone who gave me faith in love once again. It wasn’t something that either of us were planning on but God does work in mysterious ways. Thank you for giving me butterflies in my stomach and for embracing my crazy side. I cannot wait to see what the future holds for us.
I finished the year with a patched up heart, slightly less “friends” and a treasure trove of wonderful memories gathered along the way. Here’s to a new year, with its own set of ups and downs. Here’s to 2018.
OUTFIT DETAILS: Glasses by Saint Laurent Paris/ Jacket by Junya Watanabe for Comme Des Garçons x Levis/ T-shirt by H&M/ Belt by H&M/ Jeans by ACNE STUDIOS